#21

Today I would like to share about a story between two young men.

On 2009, they have met each other through the internet, and subsequently they grew up and became best friends, and later, brotherhood. Throughout the years, they shared pains and gains, and their friendship has evolved stronger.

They dream big, and were both longing for success, and wealth. Occasionally they would always shared business plan with each other, and enhancing it. The duos have been in this loop for years, and went back to drawing board more than a pair of hands can count of.

There's a saying that when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

Finally, they have successfully opened up their first company, AVAIL TRADING & SERVICES, on Seventh day of August.

Quoted Neil Armstrong:

This is a one small step for a man, one giant leap for mankind.

May this be the kickstart of every remarkable dream thereafter.

Dream on & cheers,

Benedict

Chances

Well I guess it is time to have a throwback Thursday since it is so popular on Instagram, hahaha.

Ok, back to business.

So it is April, already.

Well to be honest I don't really enjoy this month particularly as far as I am concerned. And also, this year's April is pretty much a start over for my entire life but still...

Part of the reason would be the incident that happened 4 years ago.

I still remembered every bits of it.

It was the orientation night I guess.

It was a party organized by the Uni, and right on the mark, we figured out we might as well as going since we have nothing good to do.

Upon the arrival at the event, we were not seated. In fact, I guessed we were not allowed to sit.

The MC started off by asking those who were in the hall to break the ice. They asked the questions like who's your favorite artists and stuffs. Of course, we didn't do shits because we were busy trolling the MC.

So yeah, after a brief while, 3 girls approached us and asked the same question, trying to break the ice.

There were a girl whom caught my attention.

It was like...love at first sight.

I didn't do anything and just walked off cool after we answered the question asked by them.

Later on, there were performances on the stage. Since we were all not seated yet, all of us were standing in front of the stage and watched the performance.

Guess what, the girl was just standing in front of me talking to her friends during the performance.

So I was watching her from behind and I guessed I have to make a move.

But then,  I didn't do a thing until the performance finished.

One of the thing is that I am REALLY REALLY SHY.

Shortly after that, we were all seated.

And stuffs continue.

Approaching the end of the party, there were a lucky draw.

So I said to myself, if I were to win anything from it, I am going to make a move!

I won, a cup.

I saw her smiling down at the stage.

My heart was pounding just like the speed of light.

I walked down and I figured that this might be the best chance to get to know her.

But instead, I chose to walked off cool and talked to my friends instead.

Then this was the end of the party.

We all went out of the hall and wanted to grab a cig.

I probably think that I wouldn't have another chance to get to know her again.

Then, she walked out from the hall. Alone.

My heart wanted to walk to her but instead my mind told me not to.

So I was just, standing there and looked at her, slowly walking towards the car and went off.

This was the saddest moment of my life.

Not only I didn't do what I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO, furthermore I was trying to shrug myself off every chances I have.

And yeah I was pretty much saddened and disappointed at myself for a few days.

Then, here comes the second chance.

I remembered it was about 1 month after that party. I was chilling out with my classmates at Starbucks.

Then I saw her again.

She was walking towards the classroom.

Suddenly one of my classmate stood up and shouted her name.

That grabbed her attention and she came back to greet her friend, which is my classmate.

I was so stunned. This is such a small world.

Turns out that she was actually my classmate's friend.

This time, I affirmed my chance.

I asked my classmate about her details.

I was thinking, this is it.

I got her name through my classmate, and I searched for her on Facebook and Twitter. After a few attempts on trying to talk to her through Twitter, and eventually I got her Facebook as well, I just shrug the chance off after some time. AGAIN.

I just gave up, entirely.

This serves as the biggest regret of my life.

Just to summarize it all, I felt that not every chances came by accident. It came to you as a fate. Whether if you're going to grab hold of that, or to let it go, it is all fated. Chance might not just come one time or two, but it definitely serves its purpose. Although I wasted the two chances that I had, I learned something from it. The experiences tell me that nothing is permanent and as planned. Do not give up that easily. Just keep trying.

Happiness

It's been quite sometime since I write. Life's full of daily drop dead routine, isn't it?

What really caught me on all these while was my future. Yeah, who doesn't wanna drive a Lamborghini in his/ her lifetime? It is sure as hell that you might think that YOU could achieve it. When time goes by, nothing seems relevant. Work as usual, carry on your life, and kept on working. Until you fucking die. Pardon me for saying something that might hit hard on your fancy dreams. (I'm sorry but it's written purposely.)

What does happiness really meant to you?

For me, nothing happier than gathering with a bunch of long lost friends, and chat all night long. Whether it is for a few hours or a few days, it still does matter to me. I pretty much enjoyed every moment I spent with my friends whenever I am free for a drink. Yet, none of this sustain in a long run. You will still have to move forward and achieve something in your life. Let it be your first bucket of gold or got promoted. It is still something to be shared, and to celebrate for, isn't it?

What do you do from now on?

Recently during my trip back to Ipoh, my statement got hold back so hard that it nearly turns out to be a quarrel. Sure, everyone has got his own point. Since the day I was born, I was determined to do what I like, and get it into the business world. I don't like to be poor. No one does. I have to agree on some point where you have a serious business plan where you THINK you could get it successful, but you have no capital to get things up.

I am also blown away by a word from him. STABILITY.

True, there is always someone else who would prefer a 2-3k job and work until you fucking retired. There is nothing wrong with it as well. But, no, this is not stability. This is a time bomb that will cause you and your future tied to loans and debts. You will be strained down to a point where you will literally break down and fuck yourself up.

If you ever have a chance, go for it. Wise word, don't be a dumbfuck. No one will fucking spoon feed you until you fucking die. Work out your plan, and get it done. Failed? Enhance your plan. Stop fucking wasting your time on Facebook, Twitter and etc. Money is everywhere for you to picked up from, if you're capable.

That will be the end of my thought, I guess. But, nope. This is not a tutorial for your future. It is solely my point of view. Do pm me if you got offended by any means, I would be glad to listen to your piece of advise.

Carry on.....

Of ; Responsibilty

                                      The Missing of An Access Card

How odd is this incident that made me blogs about it? Well, certainly it is. And the long haul post may begin now...

It was an ordinary night. I was still working in my office and suddenly a phone call came in and asked for a room. As usual, I will pick up the keys and have a look before confirming the booking. So when I was opening the door...

Our building's security guard was calling me for a helpful hand. He briefly explains that his building access card was taken by someone else, and asking my help to translate his words into Chinese (we have some long term unit rented out to these Chinese and Taiwanese). So we located some people that he suspected, and I talked to them, but none of them turned out to be the "thief".

To cut it short, it all came down to the security guard. Why did he put the access card on the table in the first place? Is that for the sake of convenience? Or he was an irresponsible person?

What lies between this incident is because of his carelessness. I wouldn't say that it's entirely his fault (yeah, you don't expect someone to sit there and open the f**king door for you all night long, isn't it?) But I pondered, isn't it your responsibility to secure your own access card? Let's say if the access card was taken by one of the robbery gang (or whatever kind of person can you imagine of), aren't you the one to be blamed of?

Throughout this 1 hour of man-hunting, it shows that a tiny bit of your mistake can be costly, at time. You shall be the one to lay your own responsibility on what you should take care of. There's no one to be blame but YOU.

What is responsibility to you? Or, what is the responsibility that you have to be in control with?

Words by Benedict on 3rd of August, 2012.

你对我说过的话。

那天，你跟我在zara说了句 “有女朋友也不是很好，会增加负担”。 我没有给你什么回应，因为我不懂你是跟我说还是劝我不要找女朋友。。。

到了现在，放弃你无疑是我一生人最大的决定。 谁知道有一天你会找到一个比我更好的？

突然发现， 人生真的五颜六色，悲喜交集。

当你绝望的时候，总是会有一只手把你抓紧。。。不会让你倒下。 当我需要一些劝告的时候，你给我知道原来这个世界上还有一线光明。 当我吸烟的时候， 你会劝我不要吸那么多。。。试问你走了以后，还有谁会跟我说同一番话？

我真的不希望和你分离。。。 我舍不得你。