Ok, back to business.
So it is April, already.
Well to be honest I don't really enjoy this month particularly as far as I am concerned. And also, this year's April is pretty much a start over for my entire life but still...
Part of the reason would be the incident that happened 4 years ago.
I still remembered every bits of it.
It was the orientation night I guess.
It was a party organized by the Uni, and right on the mark, we figured out we might as well as going since we have nothing good to do.
Upon the arrival at the event, we were not seated. In fact, I guessed we were not allowed to sit.
The MC started off by asking those who were in the hall to break the ice. They asked the questions like who's your favorite artists and stuffs. Of course, we didn't do shits because we were busy trolling the MC.
So yeah, after a brief while, 3 girls approached us and asked the same question, trying to break the ice.
There were a girl whom caught my attention.
It was like...love at first sight.
I didn't do anything and just walked off cool after we answered the question asked by them.
Later on, there were performances on the stage. Since we were all not seated yet, all of us were standing in front of the stage and watched the performance.
Guess what, the girl was just standing in front of me talking to her friends during the performance.
So I was watching her from behind and I guessed I have to make a move.
But then, I didn't do a thing until the performance finished.
One of the thing is that I am REALLY REALLY SHY.
Shortly after that, we were all seated.
And stuffs continue.
Approaching the end of the party, there were a lucky draw.
So I said to myself, if I were to win anything from it, I am going to make a move!
I won, a cup.
I saw her smiling down at the stage.
My heart was pounding just like the speed of light.
I walked down and I figured that this might be the best chance to get to know her.
But instead, I chose to walked off cool and talked to my friends instead.
Then this was the end of the party.
We all went out of the hall and wanted to grab a cig.
I probably think that I wouldn't have another chance to get to know her again.
Then, she walked out from the hall. Alone.
My heart wanted to walk to her but instead my mind told me not to.
So I was just, standing there and looked at her, slowly walking towards the car and went off.
This was the saddest moment of my life.
Not only I didn't do what I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO, furthermore I was trying to shrug myself off every chances I have.
And yeah I was pretty much saddened and disappointed at myself for a few days.
Then, here comes the second chance.
I remembered it was about 1 month after that party. I was chilling out with my classmates at Starbucks.
Then I saw her again.
She was walking towards the classroom.
Suddenly one of my classmate stood up and shouted her name.
That grabbed her attention and she came back to greet her friend, which is my classmate.
I was so stunned. This is such a small world.
Turns out that she was actually my classmate's friend.
This time, I affirmed my chance.
I asked my classmate about her details.
I was thinking, this is it.
I got her name through my classmate, and I searched for her on Facebook and Twitter. After a few attempts on trying to talk to her through Twitter, and eventually I got her Facebook as well, I just shrug the chance off after some time. AGAIN.
I just gave up, entirely.
This serves as the biggest regret of my life.
Just to summarize it all, I felt that not every chances came by accident. It came to you as a fate. Whether if you're going to grab hold of that, or to let it go, it is all fated. Chance might not just come one time or two, but it definitely serves its purpose. Although I wasted the two chances that I had, I learned something from it. The experiences tell me that nothing is permanent and as planned. Do not give up that easily. Just keep trying.
